生日快乐～

谢谢高二理忠的同学在毕旅时帮我和诗微庆祝生日，而且是Secret Recipe的蛋糕 =)，还送我一个 “牙签管”；谢谢2005年6S班的同学在小学聚会时帮我和诗微庆祝生日，谢谢当天那美味又昂贵的巧克力蛋糕=)；谢谢所有的营员在第六届学生领袖营的最后一餐时为我唱4种不同语言的生日歌给我听；谢谢今天sms我生日祝福语的人；谢谢今天打电话给我祝我生日快乐的人；谢谢我跟家人今晚的那一顿晚餐；谢谢所有人在我的wall post的生日祝福语，真难为一些人把我的名字打得那么长～=.=（太多了，希望能用“赞”来表示我心中的感谢）
现在还剩下20分钟，在我生日结束前，我希望明年能够事事顺利，万事如意，身体健康，SPM和高中统考都考取好成绩，认识更多的朋友，带领好明年的电脑学会及开开心心度过明年每个充实的一天 =)

无药可救？

振文的华文差？现在我的分数只跟她相差1.5分
振文的字体乱？现在考试我看到我的字也真是吓到我，那么丑&乱?!

我常常埋怨自己的英文有多烂，记忆有多差等，这莫过于是找个借口让自己逃脱这个难题而嫁祸于其他事物？Andy这人我还蛮敬佩，他下定决心要练好英文，就不会像我这样想个投机取巧的方法，直接用最原始、最实际的方法去达到这目的——背词汇，翻字典。而我，这大志老早在几年前已在我脑海里萌芽了（看我第一个post就知道），我还记得去年年尾找“神”来谈，他当初也跟我一样要搞好英文，我当然要听取他的方法，可是他说是背词汇，看故事书等经典的方法（我老早就知道是这样啦，干吗还要问？），所以一整节和他谈了天，一转头就把这件事报道九霄云外去了，一笑而之，还一直说那里可能?好笑吗？因为我一直在寻找捷径，不愿脚踏实地。我还记得他说要在明年时打好英文基础，考好SPM～

一年后，同样我再问他一样的问题，如何学习英文？咔咔，似乎有点不一样，应该是你的英文那么好，怎么学习的？没错，一样的问题，他也还是告诉我和学华文一样，你华文怎么变好，那么你英文就怎么变好（华文看范文变好？英文是否如此？）...这可证明，然而，他以达到了他的目标，他说的确很辛苦，很辛苦...可是现在他能够品尝到苦尽甘来的滋味，而我，却还在一旁吃酸葡萄...很明显，我学不好英文，不是心有余而力不足，而是心有余而不去做...我宁愿去花时间研究”学好英文的最佳方法“，却不肯花点心思在应用这些方法...找来收藏有何用？我一而再，再而三地耽搁这个责任，拖到现在，我真的觉得我这个态度非常恶心，有事情时就后悔这，后悔那，什么早知如此何必当初；没事情就找借口为自己辩护，能拖则拖，继续保持着拖泥带水的人生态度。（看我桌上前的书架就知道，借了2-3个月的英文故事书，仍然只碰了一两面；约5本的英文范文书；一叠的sunnylim笔记还没看，

正所谓“明日复明日，明日何其多；日日待明日，万事成蹉跎。”，Andy也时常玩，绍风也时常玩，为何他们能那么成功，而我却那么失败？英文就没有用，现在好像完全不会写了，如果真的像Andy努力下苦工，这一个post应该是用全英文写了，还在这儿懊悔？现在不应该再自愧了，难得Mr. Lim还给我鼓励，现在拼还来得及。经历了那么多的教训，现在还不知死活的话，我觉得我在考SPM前真的会去跳楼自杀，因为我真的是无药可救了！拖一拖，一拖就是一年了，现在还剩下仅仅的一个月就要考SPM了，别人，不用说语文科已经不是问题了，而对我来说是天大的问题。我现在还暗地里抱着1119会得到A，开玩笑！反而普通英文可能还拿不到A，看我的作文写得那么烂～为何我会变成这样？受别人影响？俊森？这的确50%是，而如果自己能不容易受他人影响的话，这50%是可以完全被免除的！还有，我所做的Plan，有哪一次是follow到的？每次都好像在纸上谈兵，活在自己幻想的空间而不去实践它，哪有什么意义？

我觉得我本身很好人，所以我觉得上天帮了我很多，上半年考试考的那么好（分数有点意外），而下半年考试应该是看我没有什么改进，让我这次一次过吸收教训，而不让我在SPM死得惨惨～玩是可以，发白日梦是可以，可是我希望我真的真的不要在拖了，譬如现在我很想再做个学习的plan，我希望等下就能将它完成，明天开始复习SPM了，尤其是语文科（别人不觉得需要再复习，可是我觉得我需要，我不能跟随其他人的步伐，还说要出国，出个屁，留在马来西亚自生自灭吧！看看steven这人那么的独立，我真的觉得自己不如别人）

适当的放松是可以的，但确保我的目标可以达成，SPM 10A+ 和 1119A+ !!!加油!!!

Back to the starting point...

I have been hesitate so long....worrying for such a long period...i keep feeling nervous on why i cant master my english well...i am so frustrated and despair on what i have done over these months...why those vocabulary i keep remembering but still cant get to them in my essays? Honestly i have striven hard for it and i still think that i am still not good enough....is all that destined to be like that? truthfully i still praying to get an "A" for english subject although i cant give 100% confidence on it...well, let bygone be bygone and appreciate the time left right now....From now forth, i must try myself to read as many essays as i can....Vow to study hard! ^^

English 1119 website

http://goodessays.blogspot.com/2008_10_01_archive.html
http://www.sabah.edu.my/smk.putatan/guru_pakar_bi.html
http://madamhayati.blogspot.com/search/label/Vocabulary
http://www.acariya-academy.com/general/the-star-spm-essay-writing/
http://kaleiselvi.blogspot.com/2009/11/kertas-percubaan-spm-2009-english-paper.html

When can I get rid of using dictionary?

Everytime i write English passage sure do i need to depend on dictionary(electronic or lingoes) to help me correct my writing error or to double confirm my language usage....i think it is one of the most significant problem that i need to pay heed to...Is it possible that this habit will follow me until i reach moment during SPM exam? That's ridiculous and i must take action to rectify this phenomenon...By how? Honestly i do not want my English level remain stationary at primary level...i need a jump...a higher jump....suffer the pain...endure the difficulties...3 more months....everything will be fined...

Mayb...using dict is the only way to give me confidence to stay writing....but then...dont rely on it...

放弃？不放弃？起轻生而燃之 :( 希望你能明白我

每当我翻开sunny lim的笔记，心里一定会燃起剧烈的恐惧感，随之担心、害怕自然地油然升起。。。。这问题早已发生了，我想告诉你，可是你给我的又是一句又一句让我沮丧的话，还打算放弃我了，不再理我了，我拿补习来安慰自己，买一堆英文参考书来瞒过自己，虚度时间，设法弥补回我不补sunny lim的后果，难道你真的认为不补他英文就没有药救了吗？。。。你可知道我已为这科科目留下了多少的眼泪。。。多少的顾虑。。。程度上的差异已经快到了无法挽回的地步，到今我还完全没有信心写好一篇英文文章，何谈要拿个A回来呢？心有余而力不足，这句谚语已证明了我在对这英文科目已束手无策。。。现在的我，需要的是关心、鼓励、劝告，而不是冷言冷语，不要再冷落我，重提我三年前的事来让我更加后悔，更加沮丧。。。不要再我的伤口上涂盐了，你让我有个念头想放弃这次的spm的英文，我现在不知要怎么办，我很困扰，却说不出口，我很想练习写作文，没有人能帮我改；我想一次过学完笔记上的字和优美句子，抄完它，记完它，可是后天就要还给她了，怎么办?

msn打句英文都不会，造个句子却没有想法，语法超级烂，好像还停留在小学。。。最后还选择用回华文来打，怎么办？？？

望出窗外，我犹如监狱里的囚犯，等待着那天的到来却得不到别人的帮助，真的要放弃吗？真的没有希望了吗？我一个人已经很辛苦了，我不想在浪费时间下去了，买了多本的作文书，每次都去看，不能提高我的写作水准；上网找了一堆堆的英文资料，花了我很多心机，还希望能找到快又有效的方法解决我的问题，可是却一叠叠的纸，实在是消化不到；上网还找了很多的软体，帮你改作文，有些还需要付费，有些像个垃圾，花了我很多很多的时间；和别人借故事书看，一个月了还看不到半面，朋友都笑我，可是我真的读不会，最后还草草读过，安慰自己读了后英文就会进步，可是一切的努力都是徒然，没有用；班上每个人的英文都很强，老师也没心教了，打算送我们这班精英去帮他拿全部A回来，可是他一点也没注意到我的存在，我正需要帮忙，可以像后面班慢慢教吗？

我现在已经筋疲力竭，真需要有人能帮我，不要期望我。。。我对英文已严重缺乏信心，没有信心写作文，没有信心说出口。。。单烦恼英文，其他是就可以置之不理吗？其他科目还被不够吗？每次多个英文来烦，烦了又没有结果，我真的很想放弃，救命啊！明天就要写作文了，难道我到现在还要继续严重依赖电脑辞典，抄袭别人的作文，上网抄作文吗？？？我很无奈，我很怕，真的很害怕，我不想继续下去。。。。。。。。别丢下我一个人，我一个人很惨，帮我可以吗？？？？？？？？我真的不想放弃，我想到外国去，我想打好英文基础。。。我不要你帮我想办法弄好英文了，给我精神上的支持好吗？？？？？？？听我诉苦好吗？？？？？？？？？？不要每次我像告诉你都好像快要骂架，害到我现在根本对你都说不出口，我很辛苦啊。。。。。。。。。。你以为我没有努力吗？？？？？？？写在部落格告诉你已经是最后的办法了。。。。我今天又哭了，要放却放不了，我快疯了，自己一个人实在是无能为力，希望你看了后能明白我现在的心情。。。

Lost in contemplation...

Sport day....arr....feeling lost of confidence....indulging in doing nothing....despair of laziness...loneliness....

Work out a holiday plan...[FAILED]

Let's see how what had i done during this holiday...

holiday started...

5-7june-- camp

8-9june-- stayed at ming hao's house....do 3D game....

10june-- went taylor to hand up our creation...later on shopping in 1U with my mom and sis..eat pizza....have a 1st experience on watching 3D TV at sony booth...at night, spending my time watching Iron Man.

11june(fri) -- use new-bought RoboClean to clean my house...quite exhausting...feeling weary to the bone...then slept whole evening until night....

12june(sat) -- early go FRIM for joking...then started raining...sleeping...go maxis center which located in Times Square to subscribe Hotlink's youth club....later on went to Lowyat and buy a mouse, a ink(after demanded for couple of weeks), VGA wires and a RCA wires(link computer to my LCD TV)

13june(sun) -- wasting time...found my abandoned garena...missing dota...but become noob edi...better forget bout it...finished some homework...luckily...

14june(today)-- morning wasting my time playing with warcraft III, finished chapter I..lolx...evening watching 2 movie: Alice in the Wonderland(not so good) and Sherlock Homes(nice!,although at the beginning i dunno what it is talking about)...at night, wanna do write my composition but indulging in facebook and bejeweled blitz...arhhh..

15june-- this day muz be fully used in order to make sure the rest of my holiday can fully enjoy...
1st stuff that muz do...finish that 我爱我家
2nd stuff..physics
3rd...lmh homework
wait a minute....most important thing!..finish reading that percy jackson...at full speed!
4th...i hope i still got time....make a SPM study plan...pack up my desk...books...papers..MIND!

16june--morning speeding with zizi...bring external harddisk...install illustrator for hui min....i'm a nice guy right? ask for that freaky moral project...
evening....sport system...hoping huan ling will not beat me at that time...
night...plz...as the god had said....stop indulging in computer anymore....no more! study bio...do some olympic  math question...if i able to...
if not...start memorizing sunny lim's notes...flowery phases and decorative vocabulary....or stduy model essay....
start training with writing a few paragraph....if not a few lines...

17june-- tuition again till 2pm...sing K with my lovely sisters....enjoy my time!

18june-- tuition...sport system...lmh....no time also....

19june-- cameron trip....play till night...

20june-- the last day...what should i do? struggling? happy? sad? depends on myself!

21june--school started...have a nice school holiday!

TIME IS PRECIOUS...see what had i wrote? bad grammar...bad writing....i need improvement!!!!

GG...speedy!

Take a look at Sabah fish....

Something horrible....something special....have you seen a green blue fish before? Now i have finally open my eye to see it.......Bought from Sabah......And it is eatable of course....I was thoroughly impressed with the beautiful scaly skin of the fish although it is quite scary indeed....=.=

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That's marvellous, right? Its scale is quite big compare to other fish...

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Before                                                After

Poor fish.....After steamed for a while, it is ready to serve. Do you dare to taste it? The flesh is quite firm and its freshness has overwhelmed my mouth...Delicious...-.-

~~~My streamyx line is getting worse....dc all the time...dunno is the matter of my router or caused by TM? haiz...

Exploring photoshop CS4

At school, I had a wonderful chat with chi hoe as both of us were waiting for parents to fetch us....we talk many topics and i found that it is quite easy to communicate with him too...

At night, i take some time to do the bulletin cover page as i am not so familiar with photoshop's function....and i use about 2-3 hours to investigate and i found myself get more used to it such as layers editing, effects and some basic functions. Acutally i juz playing with the buttons and learn them from some video tutorial....i think it was fun and will get addicted to it...cos many many unexpected effect can do with it....i found this website not bad as it has many useful tutorial to make Pro's design....
At the end, although i haven finish the cover page but i have learnt many things...so now i master a bit photoshop and illustrator basics....next thursday can start to work lo....
next week tons of exam approaching....tmr better wake up early to study.....ops 2.50 am edi...

=.=

After a week away from my blog, i feel that i don't have the enthusiasm to write my blog again...walao a...
I failed to carry out my promise as I have promised myself to write my blog twice++ a week...
err...Thursday is going to have a Chemistry test but i have not ready for it yet...-.-
my face is getting worse and worse again...cos lack of time to take care of it...o.o
the moment in the class is boring and we al started to do our things and taking again....
i think i dont have anything to say and i going to be inactive again....less active...
i must tell myself not to sleep after back to home....i took a nap more than 4 hours for quite a few days....and when i woke up already 10pm....swt....

So lame...

This year really need to face with books everyday?
Although only 1 weeks lesson but i feel quite boring at school edi...
No more fun, no more jokes....the rest only rush for the lesson....so suffuring o...
Only moral lesson can let me laugh a while because the teacher speaks everything like telling jokes...lolx
At the rest i really want to fell asleep in the class if this custom is going to elongate to the end of this year...
Mayb after that lots of exams coming soon and pile of homework wating for me to finish....so boring....
suddenly i have the idea to play some flash games in y8.com....lolx.....Give me a moment of excitement....
Later still have to back to the real world.....=.=

I juz install dreamweaver cs4 and still the same i use my method to "activate" it....
installed so many adobe product but the product that I used always is photoshop, illustrator(bulletin) and dreamweaver only....the whole Adobe Creative Suite 4 Production Premium but i only used 2 out of 17....haha....To all of them i have a faster method to "activate" them....here's the "special" dll -- amtlib.dll ..
copy and paste and replace in directory folder...paste and replace and everything nice....xD....if serial number is not working, try this...

Lazy weekend

Finally can release a moment of breathe after few days of tiring....saturday sleep bout 4 hours and sunday also have a nap at evening too....i pack my desk to have a better look in outer appearance but i still think it is still messy indeed....and my last year note still so disorder and i dont have any words to describe it...=.=

Busy and tiring year

The school lesson started immediately after two days...so fast and we need to rush for the lessons...else we are running out of time...(omg...my computer suddenly turn blue screen...=.=) This year i handle quite many jobs and          i need to use my time wisely...班上总务，学会财政，Bulletin editor，Nut member...and two tuitions too...terrible and my focus still at the SPM...today Chinese teacher say mind forms miracle...i hopes it is true...

today i wanna help Jun Shen exchange the comic book because i had bought the wrong title to him...but failed....luckily two books only...the title is confusing...he request me to buy 魔法老师....but what i see got 2 version...one is 魔法老师! and 魔法老师!? ...lolx....so irritating....so he wasted RM7.20 cos i no need to pay for it...but i will be more careful next time...next time?

coon wan me to help his bro install new hard disk with windows 7 inside...he said he will pay Rm50 for that....i wanna accept this deal but dunno how to bring back such an expensive Sony computer back home....=.= I scare i cannot update my blog frequently but i will write something when free...

English tuition doesn't matter

At first i forget to register English tuition time at the center...but when i went there the center is not opening....so i went back home and decided to come again tmr....and i think properly in the car and i think better forfeit this english tuition ba...cos i wed got math tuition, thurs got bm tuition, fri i got computer society to go....some more many exam coming next and i hope i make a right decision...actually i did not review back the content due to my laziness..why should i waste time and money again? mayb now i'm giving me some excuses but i hope i really can study myself....those study lim also can review a bit ma.....too rely on tuition cannot make sense....

haiz...same ppl sitting beside me again....5s Zhong really no difference compare to last year...same fren and all the same faces....haha....

bulletin template i decide to use 'green' concept...but now at least i muz do some sketch 1st....=.=

A Fresh Start

Tmr is a whole new day for me and all Chong Hwa students....juz come back from Singapore this evening and i juz sleep after mopped all the floor....i feel so lazy to go back to school....dun wan dun wan dun wan...=.= acting like a spoiled child....

This few days i capture so many pictures....about 700 pictures in about 2 days....everytime the camera lack of battery made me miss up all precious moment to take a shot....This time is the 1st time my family driving to Singapore...The environment between Singapore and Malaysia actually seems alike and we reach to my relatives house safely with the help of GPS (really geng...sure wont lost our way)....Not many places to visit in Singapore and in 3 days we visited Science Centre, Marina Berrage(a casino opening soon), Sentosa, Chinatown and NightSafari....Mostly we use MRT as the main transport....Fast and the waiting time not more than 7 mins....So glad if KTM have such kind of mobility...haha....By the side of cleanliness and systematic, Singapore do much better than Malaysia; but Singapore's food is not as tasty as Malaysia's food indeed and the beaches in Singapore are not beautiful like Malaysia's island....both countries have their own attractive element...

By the way i have learn many things throughout this holiday...Tonight i muz deep in meditation on what i have doing and plan for my future....at least i muz plan how to tidy up my rubbish on my desk ba....if not i dun have place to study leh....lolz....and my notes haven rearrange...somemore my handwritting is terrible and much of them muz retype or rewrite again o....

I use 1 hour to find my report card and i thought i have lost it....so scare...but at last i have found it....damn coon removed my account as the reader of his blog...== at least i have wasted so much time to read his blog...how come he treat me like this? =.= 

Tmr i nid to find Melong to discuz about bulletin template and the content edi....it's late and i dun wan do it in last minute o....I heard that dota have come out 2 new heros and i wanna to try and use them....but sad that i delete my warcraft edi....haiz....go google or youtube to search lo....

Be HappY :)