Back to the starting point...

I have been hesitate so long....worrying for such a long period...i keep feeling nervous on why i cant master my english well...i am so frustrated and despair on what i have done over these months...why those vocabulary i keep remembering but still cant get to them in my essays? Honestly i have striven hard for it and i still think that i am still not good enough....is all that destined to be like that? truthfully i still praying to get an "A" for english subject although i cant give 100% confidence on it...well, let bygone be bygone and appreciate the time left right now....From now forth, i must try myself to read as many essays as i can....Vow to study hard! ^^